Preparing for Twenty-Four Poems in Twenty Four Hours

In preparation for the forthcoming Poetry Marathon, I have been doing many things. I have been testing out writing prompts that will be posted on the website. I have been figuring out the logistics of the involvement of other people. I am working on a certificate of sorts.

However one of the things I am focusing on, is more personal: getting our household prepared to participate in the 24 hour marathon, since both Jacob and I are participating, I am very grateful that we don’t have any pets, or children, that require our attention. Only plants, and honestly they require less attention then we normally give them.  Also because it is a weekend we are both unhindered by any of the usual things that we fill our days with.  However there are still a number of things we have to figure out in advance.

The most important is food, of course. We have to stock up the day before, and prepare our main meals. This really should not be hard, because we go backpacking frequently and I manage to figure that out, pretty easily. However I sometimes get nervous in situations like this one. Things like eating out or making anything too complicated will take too much of our time, and I want to ensure that we have as much of every hour to write in as possible.

Coffee actually may be more of a legitimate concern, because the method Jacob usually makes it requires at least 10 minutes, of his attention. So we will either buy that nearby, or return to tea for the day.

I really want to make sure we get enough exercise to keep our blood flowing, and to stop us from slipping into a stupor. I figured short 15 minute walks on a regular basis would be a start, as well as a number of sit ups and crunches, every hour.

At night most people have become concerned that they may fall asleep. My personal plan is to set my alarm to go off 15 minutes before the hour, every hour, so that if I fall asleep I still have 15 minutes to write my poem.  Also I am going to have Jacob around to keep me awake. Some of my graduate school friends who still live in New York are going to try and make a sleepover out of it, to keep them up. Some people are planning to convene on Skype.

What are other peoples plans, if they are participating?

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Presumptions

A few weeks ago, Dean Kahn from the Bellingham Harald wrote an article on the Victims of Ted Bundy: Washington State and Oregon. Dean Kahn is a good writer and a thoughtful individual. He interviewed me thoroughly for the article. One of the questions he asked, gave me a great deal to think about. The question was this: Has anyone been offended by the poems? Has anyone questioned the poems?I am paraphrasing only because I am terrible at remembering exact quotation.

At the time I scoured my brain for an answer. Once someone cried in the audience at a reading. However they came up afterwards and thanked me. During a workshop one poet took offense to the use of the word drunk in a poem, because she felt that placed the blame on the victim. I thought of these examples and I told Dean of them. But I still felt that somehow I had missed a major point.

A few days later the answer came to me. I ran into a friend and an acquaintance together on a walk. The friend started telling the acquaintance about my chapbook. The acquaintance looked at me and said “Why would you write about something so twisted?”. This is a question I have gotten numerous times. In fact when I was first writing the poems as a class project my own mother was upset by them. After she read them her whole opinion changed. She ended up  supporting me in the project, even driving across Florida in a terrifying rain storm in order to take photographs.

I looked the acquaintance straight in the eye and explained the purpose of the project to him, that I wrote about women. Women that lead compelling, interesting lives. Some were  cautious, others hitchhiked. Some were well educated, others focused their attention elsewhere. Many were still figuring out their lives, but several had established careers. They all had different stories but the fact is, all of us were denied the opportunity of knowing them because of Bundy’s actions. That my book was about the names we should know, not Bundy’s but the victims names, Donna Manson, Brenda Ball, Susan Curtis . . .

The acquaintance looked at me again, and said “It’s too dark.”

I have had variations on this conversation on numerous occasions. However the fact remains that whenever I do a reading no one says anything like that. After they read the chapbook even the most skeptical individual appears to realize what the book is about. It is controversial only up to that point. However that is a significant hurdle to cross.

I have thought a great deal about re-titling the manuscript as a whole. Removing Bundy’s name from the title. So that you learn about the women before you learn about him. There are several problems with that. The first being that there is no obvious second title, the only thing that the women really had in common is that they were all under 30 and they had hair parted down the middle (which was the style at the time). The second is that even with another title the fact remains that Bundy is the one thing they all really, unfortunately, have in common, so his name inevitably comes up in a description of the book.

I am not a dark person. I close my eyes when movies get too bloody. I try to avoid news articles about murders. The only movie about a serial killer that I appreciate is Zodiac, because it is essentially about research. I do not swear. I started this project because I thought culturally speaking the attention was placed on the wrong person, in terms of crimes. We almost always focus on the perpetrator instead of the victims.

I know that I will probably always have to deal with peoples presumptions about my project. I will always try to mitigate their reaction, but in the end I really think the poems speak for themselves. That anyone who is judging a book by the cover should open it up and find out what is inside.

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American Bloomsbury: Book Review

I picked up American Bloomsbury at a library sale for 50 cents. As far as books go that is not much of a commitment. I was intrigued less by the subject matter and more by the author. Susan Cheever teaches at Sarah Lawrence and although I never attended any of her classes I have heard and read a lot of great things about her ability to write.

The book is a non fiction account of  the intersecting lives of Nathanial Hawthorne, Henry David Thoreau, Margret Fuller, Ralph Emerson, and Louisa May Alcott. The book largely takes place in Concord, MA, where they all lived for a while. The book is a little uneven in terms of pacing and also in terms of style. Cheever alternates between the individual she is focusing on, often overlapping the same period of time. There is a disclaimer concerning this in the front of the book, but I don’t feel like the technique is entirely justified by the content.

Still I found the book riveting. The facts it contained were largely new to me. I did not realize that Emerson was financially responsible for supporting so many important writers and individuals. That Thoreau helped get Hawthornes house ready for the arrival of his family. I did not realize that Thoreau taught Louisa.

There were many more revelations but it was not just the content but the style of Cheevers writing that made the book so engaging. The words she chose helped maintain a clear and compelling plot, but they also allowed the individuals to seem relate-able in a way that felt honest. In some non fiction books I find myself repeatedly questioning the authors statements. How do the know what anyone is thinking, never mind someone who died over a hundred years ago. I rarely asked myself that question during this book.

Even though the book was very thoughtful in its approach to the individuals involved it was sometimes overwhelmed by the shear numbers. Not only are there five main characters but most of them are married or related to a number of other people Cheever must explain. It sometimes causes confusion.

Occasionally Cheever inserts herself into the narrative, I did not find that helpful at all, but it was easy to ignore.

I think the book is very much worth reading not just because of the facts it contains but because it is engaging and thoughtful, insightful not just about the individuals that are discussed but about the movement and the town that they were a part of. As a writer I found the whole story particularly interesting because of the insights it gave me into the writing lives of Thoreau, Alcott, and Hawthorne. As well as the way it discussed the interaction of culture and the written word.

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The Routines of Other Writers

Writing is not a job with hours or even deadlines, unless you count the self imposed one. Because of that I have always been fascinated by the routines and daily schedules of other writers and artists. There is so much self discipline involved in being a dedicated writer. Some of my friends write best in bars, others measure their writing time by cups of tea, everyone has different rituals or habits.  I generally get my best creative work done in the morning and then spend my afternoons editing and doing other assorted work.

I find the habits of famous writers I admire as fascinating as those of my friends. Winston Churchill wrote many large volumes of text. He did most of his wok in concentrated focused periods, often at night. However unlike most writers, he dictated the vast majority of his later work to a typist.

Auden did not believe in writing on a full stomach. He did the bulk of his writing in the morning after a breakfast of coffee, orange juice, and a cigarette. He also tended to keep his lunches light, as he often wrote in the afternoon as well.

Raymond Chandler put around four hours a day aside for writing. In those four hours he did not have to write, but he did not allow himself to do anything else.

Last year I read a fascinating article, that I highly recommend called Self-Control Techniques of Famous Novelists by Irving Wallace. I have actually not read much by Irving Wallace besides the article, but I found the details of his routine, fascinating. When writing his first book at 19, he kept a work chart, a tradition he has maintained since then. The charts record the date he started each chapter and the date he finished it, and the number of pages written within that period. By the time he reached his fifth book, he also recorded how many pages he wrote a day. A page from the chart is included in the article.

The article also includes a great deal of other writers routines. Trollope and Hemingway also kept charts of their progress. Balzac, Flaubert, Conrad, and Hemingway, averaged at least six hours of concentrated writing a day.

Some people associate writing with inspiration, but often that comes with a great deal of hard work and self discipline.

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Finish Line

In school you know that your essay will be as good as it will ever be on the day it is due. After you hand it in you will move on to future essays, that may be better or worse. Even in Graduate School, you have this feeling of completion. You know the day your thesis is due on. You know that you have several opportunities to revise it with the help of others before then. When you hand it in, as finished as it can be, and the whole thing is bound, between hardcovers. You have a feeling of accomplishment.

The version of Victims of Ted Bundy I handed in on the last week of school, felt complete to me. I had been revising some of the poems for over a year. Within a few weeks of graduating, Jeanne Duval editions would offer to publish a portion of that manuscript as a chapbook. Things seemed to come to come together naturally.

Then I started looking into getting the manuscript as a whole published, I discovered one important fact right away, my manuscript was not quite long enough. 4-15 pages too short, depending on the publisher.  I did not know how to make it longer. I had included all the confirmed victims, even a couple of witnesses. There was no obvious place to add length.  So I submitted it to three places, knowing it was too short. I was not shocked when they said no.

I thought of various ways to lengthen it. Some people suggested including pictures, others an essay. People even mentioned artificially bulking it up, with information that didn’t really work.  I got a job, became busy, and just let things be.

When we moved in May, and things settled down again, I found myself refocusing on the manuscript, returning to my research and writing. Finding new details to include. I also focused on some victims that were most likely killed by Bundy, but there is not quite enough evidence to day for certain.

However, after finishing that major revision, I am faced with another issue. How do I know when the edits to that revision are done? Will it suddenly, 10 edits it, feel finished? I have two people reviewing the poems now, and I find myself re-working them a little bit every couple weeks. However in grad school I got very accustomed to a great number of people reviewing my work. To having a mass stamp of approval on it, before releasing it.

I have still workshop-ed individual poems and even without work shopping I always feel like I knew when they are ready, because at a certain point I start to submitting them to literary magazines. After they find a published home, I know can leave the poem alone, that the poem has reached the point where it is mature.

With the Bundy poems they are not written to stand on their own, they are written to be read in the context of each other. The poems all interact thematically. They build a fractured narrative together, and. Which makes the whole process even more challenging, one edit can effect another poem entirely, or the tone of the manuscript as a whole. So it is hard for me to know when it is finished, or even when it may be close

 

 

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The Importance of Challanges

I completed NaNoWriMo. I spent a Month at the Met. I am well on my way to reading 200 books this year. Not everyone gravitates towards challenges, but I have always found that I have benefited from them greatly.

When I was still just a hobbyist poet, I challenged myself to write 31 poems each month, for 3 months in a row. That is how I stopped being a hobbyist. Before that I believed in the muse and luck, if a poem came to me once a month, that was enough. That is not how any writing works, having already worked on novels, seriously, for over five years, I should have known that. But people often talk about poetry in a way that makes writing it seem different then writing prose. After writing 31 poems a month, for 3 months, I knew that it wasn’t about the muse, but a lot of hard work.

When I created the project, a Month at the Met, I didn’t know how it would go. I knew I would visit the Met once a day, every day, for a month, to write. I also knew that daily I would have to put a poem that I had just written, at the Met, up on the web. I wrote some bad poems during that month, but overall it was one of the most productive times in my life in terms of writing. Over half of the poems I did as part of the project, ended up being published within a year. I was so energized by that month, that I wrote a novel in verse, the following month.

I have been writing a lot lately. Working on old poems and writing new ones. However I want to be energized and challenged in a new way. That’s why I came up with idea of a Poetry Marathon, a 24 hour poem writing challenge, where every hour you have to write and post a new poem. Initially I was just going to do it, but then I started talking about it with Jacob, and he wanted to do it as well. We are planning to do it in early August. I expect it to be a very small marathon, but an extremely productive one.

I am still working out the details, but if you are interested in participating or following the Marathon, you should sign up for the mailing list here: Poetry Marathon.

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Other Favorite Journals

A while back, I wrote about some of my favorite journals here. Since then I have discovered other interesting journals, that I must contribute to the list. This list like the other is in no particular order

I tend to gravitate towards journals with good work, good art, and a clear layout. In fact some journals that I really admire for their content, I do not include in this list, simply because they are hard to read, because they have too many works of varying degrees of quality, or because everything is smashed together and hard to navigate. A good journal is not just about the content, but about the presentation.

Also, I must declare that I have been published in some of these journals, rejected by others, and never applied to some of them, at all.

I generally favor new journals that I think are doing a particularly good job.

1. The Missouri Review

The first time I read the Missouri Review, I was not particularly impressed because I just read the poems. I did not and do not, particularly like the poems in the Missouri Review. They are not terrible, I just don’t have the same taste as the editors. In the next edition there was an interview with Jo Anne Beard (a non fiction/fiction writer) I adore, and whose work I teach. I read and loved it, and found myself enjoying the fiction and non fiction included in the issue at well. It was intriguing and unusual. It is an excellent journal, in every genre, except (in my opinion) poetry.

2. The Labletter

I am a sucker for literary journals with beautiful websites and The Labletter has a beautiful website.  The print journal is even more aesthetically pleasing. It has full color photo’s and paintings by very talented visual artists. It is presented in a large and clear format. The writing contained is interesting and compelling stuff that contains plenty of substance.

3. The Liner Magazine

The Liner is a small transatlantic journal. The journal is beautifully bound and stylistically pleasing. The poems and stories are very engaging. The art work wonderful. Instead of authors bios they have a questionnaire in the back.

4. Stone Highway Review

An excellent magazine, with compelling and concrete poems, thoughtfully presented and put together.  Reading the Stone Highway Review is like reading a truly excellent anthology, except you can read it for free, online and if you want to keep in your living room, you can always order up a print copy. Mary Stone Dockery, one of the editors, is an excellent reviewer. I am not just saying that because of the kind words she wrote about my chapbook. Every review I’ve read by her has tempted me into buying a journal, or chapbook, that turns out to be just as she promised it would be.

5.  Lowestoft Chronicle

A lot of journals have a very vague mission statement, sometimes the word avant garde is mentioned, often the words taste or traditional. Nothing particularly helpful. Lowestoft, knows what they want, possibly humorous travel related writing. They also know what to do with it, the online journal has a wonderful 50’s/60’s tongue in cheek tone.

6.  The Conium Review

The Conium Review is a terrific journal, with excellent poems, that have a lot of substance, and really handle language in a neat and unique way. The editors have done a really good job and seem to spend a lot of time thinking about ways to integrate poems into readers lives. Even though this is a print publication they have a great series of podcasts that are good to listen to, particularly if your interested in submitting to the journal.

7. Reprint Poetry

Reprint Poetry is a great online journal of previously published poems. The work here is thoughtful, clear, and generally amusing. They also take suggestions, of work by others, that they should reprint.

 

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Unsubstantial Poetry and Academia

What I am planning to write about is something I have not entirely figured out. I say this as a person who has many outspoken opinions on differing things: backpacking (good – just not in Europe), ketchup (disgusting), bacon (delicious), coal trains (terrible), smoking cigarettes (should be illegal), etc. . . However this particular topic is one that I have spent a lot of time thinking about, and have not yet entirely figured it out. I probably never will. This post is a little bit of a ramble, so forgive me.

I know poetry is important. I know this because a week ago my uncle repeated Song of The Master and the Boatswain, verbatim at the dinner table, a poem he had memorized for a high school English class. One of my close friends, Elizabeth, retells a story, frequently, of preforming a beatbox version of Fire and Ice, with fellow waiters and waitress, and everyone that surrounded her, requested that she repeat it. Former students have made it abundantly clear to me that Phenomenal Women changed their lives.

I myself, do not know what I would do without The Lake Isle of Inissfree, The More Loving One, The Lady of Shalott, etc … I believe poetry is very capable of being a life altering thing, because I have seen it in the lives of those around me, be they poets, or film directors. I know that writing poetry is no longer a choice for me, it something I am compelled to do.

Before I went to graduate school, I had read very little modern poetry, and knew very few poets (even fewer my age). Most of my friends did not read poetry, and many from that part of my life, that I am still very close to, don’t. So what I do to them is a little bit of a mystery, which is fine, because often it is a mystery to me as well. I read a lot of modern poetry now, I know a lot of poets. I know a lot of good poets. Some who have been widely published, some who are not really in the practice of submitting. I know there are good contemporary poets out there. However even with many of these poets that I enjoy, and follow, I could not say that there poems have effected my life, or that their lines have embedded into my days.

I am always shocked when looking through journals to submit to, how many of the poems I am looking at seem to be entirely devoted to language, or spacing. In graduate school I became leery of confessional poems, but sometimes after going through a journal relying so intensely on spacing, obscure words, or an idea based on idea, based on a painting, based on a book, that was never published, by a obscure foreign author, a nice old fashioned confessional seems refreshing.

I do not understand this creation of things that do not create strong images, ideas, do not tell a story, do not allude to something interesting, they seem empty, like shrines to language. Robert Haas, a poet whose work I enjoy and respect, has very championed someone’s work who to me epitomizes this idea of a language shrine. Sometimes I can enjoy these poems for a moment, but they always leave me empty, dust filled.

I taught a number of Billy Collins poems to one of my classes last year. Billy Collins is a poet frequently mocked in grad school, and one whose work I don’t particularly enjoy, but who clearly explores ideas in a way that connects, often through humor, to the reader. This is something we, as writers are not often encouraged to do in workshops. People always comment on the language, line breaks, which lines work, and which ones don’t, but the content is rarely mentioned (There are exceptions to this rule – Laure-Anne Bosselaar and Tom Lux, greatly encourage the discussion of content). This is a problem. This makes the poem more about language then ideas and image, which is often where I think the crux of the poem lies.

Often, academia breeds meaningless in poems. Not always, there are clear exceptions to this, but I feel like it is a growing problem. I have discovered that I often know if someone has attended an MFA and sometimes even which MFA program it was, based on reading a few poems in a journal. This is not a good thing.

Other types of writers often think about their audience. In fiction workshops the intended audience is discussed regularly. In poetry workshops and among many poets, when an audience is discussed it is usually described, or assumed to be an audience exclusively of poets. Poets reading poets, poets supporting other poets, but not readers who are not poets, not readers who are just readers. I have even heard poets make bold statements about their poems not being intended for non poets. They use a vocabulary that excludes readers that do not have previous experience with contemporary poetry.

When people talk about why modern poetry is often sidelined in North America, I think about the fact that poet’s are not writing for others any more. They are writing for each other, which is fine, as long as that is a flexible term, one that can open up and embrace strangers. Can be welcoming to fiction readers and plumbers and people who might have read all of Nicholas Sparks works. I want to be open to that. I also want to write poems that take time, that have layers, but I know that given time, or the write start, almost anyone is capable of exploring layers, of enjoying them, of feeling satisfied by “solving” part of a poem that used to hold a mystery from them.

I know I veered into generalizations here, and many of my thoughts might need refining, but I wanted to open this up, as a discussion of sorts. I am clearly very thankful for my MFA experience and I love Sarah Lawrence College and many of the poets and people I met there. My manuscript about the victims of Ted Bundy would not have been possible without Stephen Conner’s excellent class. I would not be the poet and person that I am without them, however in my experience SLC is the kind of college that encourages questioning.  I look forward to hearing peoples thoughts, however they want to share them.

 

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Writing At Home & Ritual

For years I wrote in coffee shops, often twice a day, with a gym and lunch break in between. Then I started commuting to work in Manhattan and the idea of writing in a crowded coffee shop instead of spending some time at home, became less appealing. Also around the same time, my husband Jacob found himself fatigued of coffee shop working. We lived in a small one bedroom apartment, but we found ourselves rearranging so that somehow we managed to fit a rough approximation of a desk.

The important thing I have learned about working at home is a that a sense of ritual is vital. In the coffee shop there is a certain built in ritual. You have to walk there. Then you pay for the coffee, sit down, open your laptop and discover that often enough you are ready to work. At home this just does not work. One of the things Jacob found himself doing instead as part of his work ritual was making bread. He found a recipe for bread that was very simple, involved virtually no kneading, but it required up to 24 hours to create, with a couple steps within that time. It would break up his time nicely, but it would also create a delicious finished product. Jacob would also make pour over coffee as part as his ritual. I would often read first, or start working with a cup of coffee after coming back from the gym.

Since we had a month off to travel and move, we are now reordering our rituals. Living in a smaller town and a bigger apartment has helped inform the changes. We now have an office with two windows as the office, but our living room and deck also create additional work space. We often go for a long walk in the afternoon and Jacob has started bread baking again. Instead of drinking coffee we have taken to tea in the morning. Often the first cup of tea makes it clear when the serious work is starting. We have also discovered, that due to the mass amount of time zone changing we have done and the morning express train that runs by our apartment, we now wake up much earlier, which has very much changed the shape of our day. It also surprisingly means that unlike before, I am actually more capable of writing in the morning.

Rituals always shift and need reshaping, but it is really nice to discover one that encourages encourages work and writing to happen naturally. I started really thinking about ritual and writing when the wonderful Rebecca Loudon started interviewing me for Menacing Hedge (you can read the finished product here).

 

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W.H. Auden

“May I, composed like them
Of Eros and of dust,
Beleaguered by the same
Negation and despair,
show an affirming flame”

September 1st, 1939 – W.H. Auden

The above excerpt was from the poem that initially drew me to Auden’s work. The poem as a whole was not a favorite of Audens, by any stretch. He was known to refuse to allow magazines to reprint it and once referred to it and another poem as “Trash which he is ashamed to have written”. The poem is also not a favorite of mine, but those lines, more then any have stuck with me, become much more a part of my body then any tattoo could be. They manage to bring in many of the ideas that Auden was preoccupied with in a few lines, while alluding to others. They encapsulate what I admire about Auden as a poet, a man, and a Christian.

Auden wrote about love, the apocalypse, language, faith, war, and loss, in a distant, often impersonal way, that remains powerfully specific. I was never taught any of his work as high school student, an undergraduate, or a graduate student. Even though every poetry class I have ever attended has somehow managed to cover the Fish by Elizabeth Bishop, no one mentioned Auden. In fact most of the complex discussions I have had about Auden have involved non poets, who really admire his writing.

I do not know how his writing managed to find its way out of favor. He was both famous and polarizing in his time. But as I understand it, somewhere along the line he was classified with the “older poets” for writing verse. His poem’s reflect verse, in a natural, organic way that, once you become accustomed to it, only adds to the poem. Never distracting from it. Auden himself said “Poetic Form is a challenge to prove that what the poet has to say is not an accident.” What he chose to say was very deliberate, a clear balance of content and language that happened to involve rhyme. When I first read one of his poems to Jacob, his initial reaction was that it wasn’t very good, partially because he was unsure of how to interact with the rhyme. Now Auden is one of his favorite poets.

Depending on the poem Auden can be a simple poet, making clear statements, or he can be very convoluted. Since I have taught Auden’s work to classes, I have had the pleasure of ordering students to look up words like “midden”. Many of his more complicated works manage to be a treat even just on the level of word play, and the sound of the language.

My favorite Auden poems generally balance the language with an idea, but an idea made clear and substantial through imagery. Because of his strong idea and image pairing many of his lines, have become part of my life, in a way, that makes me grateful, regularly for that fact that he lived and wrote. In a way, when I question my own writing, I keep his poems in mind, as a reassurance, that words can create substance.

 

(Sources: Edward Mendelson’s introduction to W.H. Auden’s Selected Poems, Auden: An American Friendship, by Charles H. Miller, Wystan and Chester by Thekla Clark.)

 

 

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